Lily was exhausted. She had been trailing behind Baird on his leash for the past two hours, and they had easily covered five miles in that time.
After Baird had gone bounding through the gardens, threatening to trample every plant insight, Lily had hooked him up to his walking leash, which she was sure hadn't been used in years. Hearing the once familiar click of the leash snapping onto his collar, Baird had immediately taken off down the sidewalk in the direction of Bryan Park, more than a half-mile down the road. He had raced along the pavement, stopping to chase squirrels and bark at cars along the way. Lily had been jerked around so much by the suddenly exuberant canine that she felt certain one or both of her arms would be pulled out of their sockets.
He dragged her through the park -- she couldn't keep track of how many circuits they had made -- and enthusiastically greeted any other people and dogs they happened to meet on their outing. Everyone smiled and laughed at Baird's excited friendliness, asking Lily how old her puppy was; they were all astonished to hear that, in her estimation, he had to be at least fifteen. And then he had taken off again.... Every time he felt that Lily was slowing him down, he would turn to bark playfully at her and take up the leash in his own mouth to pull her along. Passersby called out, "Is your puppy taking you for a walk?"
Lily was relieved to see the Frye house coming back into view again. Baird himself was leading her back here, so perhaps he was finally wearing down. "Only three drops did this," she reminded herself. How was such a thing possible?
Susana was on the veranda at the side of the house, sitting in the wicker rocking chair and engrossed in Tic's journal. She heard a dog barking nearby and looked up. She couldn't believe her eyes, seeing Lily being dragged up the front walkway behind a dog who could only be.... Baird? She rose to her feet.
"Is that Baird?" she asked incredulously.
"One and the same." Lily was out of breath. As she jogged up the front steps behind the dog -- so as not to fall flat on her face -- she unhitched him and let him run inside. She reached out for one of the porch columns for support and gently leant her body against it. "I am too old," she complained, regaining her breath, "to go walking a fifteen-year old dog!"
"What happened?" Susana could hear Baird inside the house, lapping up what was left in his water bowl.
Great, Lily thought to herself. Now he's drinking the rest of it....
"Lily," Susana brought her cousin back into focus. "What happened with Baird?"
Lily dropped the leash to her feet and started laughing. "You're not going to believe this," she began. "You know how I was telling you about how herbal rememdies work, that they help the body detox and boost natural immunity, stuff like that?"
"Yeah," Susana responded warily.
"That there aren't any miracle cures? Well, forget all that."
"I don't...." Susana found Baird standing beside her, wagging his tail and hopping about. "What did you do to this dog?"
"Aengus wort," Lily told her. "I put just a couple of drops into his water this morning."
"You experimented on the dog." Susana crossed her arms over her chest, but Baird yipped at her, demanding that she pet him. She knelt down beside him and scratched him behind the ears.
"He took a nap for about three seconds, and then.... this. He's been going like this all day."
Susana looked into the dogs eyes and face. "Well, he doesn't look like he's been drugged...."
"It's not a drug, Susana," Lily said impatiently. "Whatever that herb is, whatever it does, it does it quickly. And it's pretty extreme."
"I'll say." Susana was scratching Baird belly now, and he was wriggling about joyfully.
"But how did your research today go?" Lily knelt down beside them on the cool floor of the porch.
Susana laughed, revealing her stress as she ran her hands through her hair. "You know how sometimes your whole world gets turned upside down, when you don't know your right elbow from your left?"
"Yeah...."
"Well, this whole past month has been like that for me," Susana complained. "Maybe I should get used to it, but it's just exhausting."
"It's the Tower," Lily commented quietly.
"What?"
"The Tower. The Tarot card, the Tower," Lily said distinctly. She looked at Baird. "Geez, I just hadn't expected anything like this." Just wait, she heard her inner voice urging her.
"Whatever it is, we've got more book appearing out of thin air." Susana climbed to her feet and walked back to her rocking chair. Lily followed her.
Susana sat down in her rocker, and Lily took a seat across from her. Susana held up the journal for Lily to see. "This was on my bed when I got home this afternoon, and wouldn't you know it? The timing couldn't have been more perfect."
"What do you mean?"
Susana laid the book on her knees. "This is Tic's journal, from when he was a young man. Just this afternoon..." Susana threw up her hands. "Geez! It's like deus ex machina! Over and over again!"
Lily frowned. "It's like, what exactly?"
Susana settled her hands into her lap but shook her knees to relieve her agitation. "Deus ex machina. It's Latin."
"Of course," Lily replied sarcastically.
Susana was losing patience. So what if she had gone to private school? Would Lily always be throwing this back in her face? She sighed, realizing she was only facing her own demons. "It means 'god from the machine,' and it refers to ancient plays, when the characters would find themselves in a real mess, but then suddenly a god would appear to set everything right."
Lily leaned back into the rocking chair, a satisfied smile on her face. "Well, sure. Isn't that always how it happens."
"I just meant that there's a bunch of crazy stuff going on, all around, and it's just all so convenient how everything fits together. "Susana was exasperated. "Like nothing's a coincidence."
"Yes." Lily rocked herself slowly in the chair. "Exactly. And that's what I meant. Ex deus whatever," she waved her hands in the air. "Whatever you want to call it, it's still magic."
Susana pressed her lips together. She needed to keep herself focused on what was right in front of her, because she wasn't sure she could handle the big picture just now. "Anyway...." Susana opened the book and flipped forward a few pages. "What I've found in here has been particularly enlightening. Did you know that Tic fought in World War II? That he was a kind of war hero?"
Lily frowned. No one had ever mentioned such a thing. She shook her head.
"Yes, and this journal, part of it anyway, was written while he was overseas, fighting in Europe."
"Okay....?" Baird slid himself in front of the rocking chair, and Lily used him as a footstool.
"And that he had gotten his heart broken?" Susana looked up from the book and up at her cousin. "I think I know why Tic was researching the plant. Aengus wort."
"It's also called honshawe," came a voice from the lawn, startling Susana out of her wits. Jumping to her feet, she found Roy smiling up at her.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to frighten you." Roy walked around to the front and climbed the stairs to the porch. "May I join you, ladies? I think it's time we had a talk about what's been going on here."
Lily was also on her feet now, her eyes narrowed as she regarded the intruder. But Baird jumped up and skipped over to welcome the guest. Susana studied the dog's movements, then looked up at Roy. "It's okay, Lily," Susana said, her voice softening.
Lily glanced at her in surprise, but Susana stopped her before she could voice a protest. "Baird recognizes something in him," Susana offered. She stepped back toward her rocker and offered Roy a chair. "Please sit down."
"Would you like something to drink." Lily's voice was strained, full of disdain. Still, Roy offered her a genuine smile in response.
"No, thanks you. I know it was rude of me to interrupt you like that. I hadn't meant to eavesdrop," he apologized. "But I realize that you might need some assistance."
"Assistance?" Susana fingered the leather-bound journal in her lap.
Roy leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. "With the plant in your garden. Your uncle called in aengus wort, but it has had many other names over the years."
"Yes, that's what we've already uncovered." Lily's demeanor, still exhausted after being dragged behind Baird all afternoon, was a mixture of weariness and vague hostility.
"Right." Roy glanced at the huge magnolia tree in the front yard, then continued. "The native americans called it honshawe, and considered it to be a very sacred plant. And it still is today, a very special plant." He glanced back and forth between the cousins. "That it showed up here is no accident."
"The plant chose us?" Lily's curiosity was getting the better of her.
"It chose this time and place." Roy leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes. "And that's why I'm here."
"What? Are you some kind of plant guardian?" Lily snorted.
Calmly, Roy opened his eyes and looked deeply into Lily's face. She felt a great calm come over her. In a flash, she remembered the Star card he had drawn in his Tarot reading with her, and her mind filled with the vision of a streaking light -- not quite a meteor, but something sparkling and pure -- spiraling downward from the stars toward planet Earth. She closed her eyes against the image in her head, but she couldn't shake it. Opening her eyes again, she looked at Roy, an expression of understanding growing on her face.
"Susana...." Lily began, her eyes still on Roy. "I think we need to listen to what he has to say."
* * * * *
The three sat around the coffee table in the living room, finishing the simple dinner of spaghetti that Susana had prepared. At least they hadn't ordered out again, Susana told herself as she took her last bite and then set down her plate. In the center of the table sat the collection of bottles that Lily had been working with earlier in the day. Susana kept the journal close by, wedged between her hip and the inside of the upholstered chair.
Roy had given them a sparse overview of his life in Trinidad. His father was an American who had fled the country on charges of embezzlement, landing in Trinidad where he had met Roy's mother. "My father can never return to the United States," he had told them, "but he wanted me to see his homeland, and to study here. Of course, we knew that I would be watched," he had said, with a quick glance out the window. The black sedan monitored his every movement, and he was certain that his small apartment was bugged. Curiously, it didn't bother him.
"They are trying to look like the FBI," Roy told them as he put his empty plate down. He smiled his thanks to Susana, then sat back in his chair. "You've heard of the 'men in black,' right?"
"So you've got the galaxy defenders after you, then?" Susana asked with a teasing smile. She was surprised to see Lily taking the suggestion seriously.
"That's exactly who they are, isn't it?" Lily asked Roy. "And you've been sent here.... because of this plant?"
Roy nodded. Lily had grown up in a magical world, and while she hadn't trusted him initially, she trusted her vision. Susana was still caught up in restrictive logic, despite the cataclysms of the past weeks. She was still holding onto to what she believed was her anchor of sanity. It was Roy's intention to sever that link, to finally set her free, so that she could become the healer he knew her to be.
"Susana." Roy leaned forward, engaging her. "I know that your world has been turned completely upside down recently, several times over. But I'm have to ask you to take one more leap of faith, with me."
His eyes were soft, and Susana found herself melting. She wanted to trust him, wanted to believe anything he had to say. But she also didn't want to lose her grip on reality, as slight as it might be.
Roy watched her thoughts and smiled gently. "I want you to take a deep breath, right now." Susana complied, and he could see the change in her energy as she released just a little bit more of her skepticism. "That's good," he encouraged her. "Now, once more."
Susana inhaled deeply, feeling the breath fill her down to her toes. Involuntarily, she closed her eyes. Curiously, her scalp was tingling, and she felt a peaceful calm spread down her arms and legs. She opened her eyes to Roy's waiting smile.
"Susana," he began gently. "Lily knows what you don't."
Susana glanced quickly to her cousin, but Lily was watching Roy.
"She had more time to prepare for this," he continued. "But you need to know, too. You need to be a part of this."
"Okay." Susana relaxed in her chair, softening her hands. If Lily trusted this guy, she supposed that she could, too.
"I am a walk-in soul," Roy told her, his voice confident and strong. He gave her a moment, watching for any changes on her face. "Do you know what that means?"
"Not in the least." Susana looked back at him, almost embarrassed by her ignorance.
"That's okay." Roy's voice immediately put her at ease. What was it about this guy? Susana relaxed her shoulders and waited for him to continue.
"Sometimes a person is done with life, before the body is ready to be surrendered." Roy slipped off his shoes and pulled his feet up to sit cross-legged in the chair. "Sometimes it's a suicide, or an illness, or an accident. The soul is ready to move on, but the body is still usable."
Susana stiffened. What was he talking about? Body snatchers? She looked to her cousin for reassurance but found that Lily's gaze was still focused on their guest.
"There's no need to be alarmed," Roy said calmly, reading her body language. "This has been going on since the beginning of time. There are other souls, who have very important work to do, who don't necessarily have time to waste being born and growing up. They need to get in very quickly, to get the job done."
"What kind of job?" Susana would ask an question she could in order to avoid the image of body-snatching she now had running through her head.
"Usually we come in as healers or teachers," Roy explained. "In my case, as Lily said, I'm not exactly the guardian of this herb you have growing in the yard, but it is along those lines." He gazed into Susana's eyes for a long moment, making sure that she was still with him. "I'm kind of guide for those who would use the plant, to help in the healing process."
Inexplicably, Susana found stray tears meandering down her cheeks. "Are we in so much pain then," she said, gesturing to her cousin, "that we warrant this kind of, of divine intervention?"
"There is no pain that is any worse or more important than anyone else's." Roy watched Susana brush the tears away from her face. "This herb, honshawe, aengus wort -- whatever you choose to call it -- didn't appear here just for you. But it did choose you -- you and Lily, and Tic even -- for a reason."
"Oh, geez!" Susana exclaimed, reaching for the journal at her side. "Tic! Lily, I know why Tic wanted to work with the plant, why he got so excited about it." A frown grew on her face as she looked at Roy. "But that was before you came.... How long has it been growing here?"
Roy's face brightened. Susana was accepting the truth, at least for the time being. "It has always been here, Susana. But it only sprang out of the ground a few months ago. And Tic had been expecting it."
Lily looked up in surprise. "His grandmother..." she wondered aloud.
"It's no accident," Roy continued, "that this property for generations would be held by the Fryes, a family of witches, people who respect and care for the earth. People who recognize their own power." Roy looked directly into Susana's eyes. "You and Lily are simply the latest in a long line of stewards."
* * * * *
May 13, 1947
This is the last journal entry I intend to make, at least on this subject. I will lay it all down, once and for all. I will get this out of my system and then will spend the remainder of my years trying to rectify this situation I have provoked. Or at the very least, trying to forget it ever happened.
Simone! How I loved that girl. She was my best friend growing up, my sunshiny confidante. She wasn't like the other kids, who liked to taunt me by pointing and screaming, "witch!" when my grandmother went out walking -- and later on, screaming and pointing at me. Some children haven't yet been spoiled by the prejudices of their parents, and Simone was one of those precious creatures.
As we grew older, naturally I assumed that we would marry. We were an easy pair, already the best of friends. I couldn't imagine another woman in my life, one who might separate me from time spent with Simone. My love for her went beyond the simple spark between men and women, more than the warm bond shared between friends. It made all the sense in the world to me.
But she fell in love with Henry. Why could I have not been happy for her? And she was happy, if I would have only opened my eyes to see it. I was so caught up in my own anguish, loving and hating her at the same time, hating Henry. If I had only had an ounce of wisdom then, to know that the heart always mends, and that sometimes we don't get what we want because there is something better waiting around the corner. But I was not wise. I was jealous, and called it love. I was angry. I was possessive, and it turned me mean.
There is no true forgiveness for the action I took. I curse the day I even thought of casting a binding spell! Yes, I thought myself a great wizard then, at the young age of twenty. Certain that I could bend the world -- and Simone's heart -- to my selfish will.
For years afterward, I blamed my grandmother for having such books in the house, but there is no way she could have known what I meant to do. I was in so much pain in those years that followed, and I looked for any opportunity to place blame outside myself.
But I had made the choice to cast the spell, the spell that simultaneously bound Henry so that he was inaccessible to love, and that called Simone's heart back to me. In my blindness, I had assumed that Simone's love was mine for the taking, that Henry was a mere distraction that could be easily eliminated. And that once he was out of the way....
The results were disastrous. Henry did indeed become inaccessible. He joined the military and found himself stationed out west. Simone was heartbroken, but I was overjoyed! When she asked me to cast a spell for his protection, I cast a spell alright. Only I reinforced the curse I had already let loose. And she did indeed turn to her old friend for comfort, though it was not her heart that she offered to me at first. Still, I knew that she would come around in time. She was my soul mate, I was certain of it.
And then there as the attack on Pearl Harbor. Like so many other young men across the country, I enlisted in the Army that very day, outraged and heeding the call to duty. It was days before Simone had told me that Henry had been killed in that raid. She had wept in my arms, and I have never heard such agony in a woman's voice, the way she moaned and sometimes even screamed. They had been engaged, secretly, waiting for Henry to get settled in his new career before they made plans.
And now he was gone. The spell had worked! Henry was completely inaccessible. But I couldn't be happy to see my dearest Simone in such pain, and I was too wracked with guilt to be sensible about it. It was bad enough that I may have contributed to Henry's death -- there's no way I had killed him, but his death could not have been coincidental, not after the curse I had put on him -- but I was foolish enough to admit to Simone what I had done. I can hardly believe it to this day. What had I expected from her? Sympathy? Understanding?
Cold hatred. I will never in all my years forget the look in her eyes as she began to comprehend what I had just told her. I had betrayed her. I had betrayed her trust and had separated her from her true love, so she told me. I tried to laugh it off at first, confident that the second half of the spell -- drawing her into my arms -- would take effect at any moment, and that all of her protestations and anger would melt into charming endearments, that none of it would matter. But none of that happened, of course. Free will is free will. And she cursed me with hers.
I was shipped overseas, which was fine with me. I felt I deserved to die, after what I had done. And I knew that I would never have Simone's love, so it was all the same to me. But then I met Marie in Paris. She was so bright and cheerful, even in the midst of the hell all around her. I don't know how, but she reached inside me, touched my heart, and brought my soul back to life. Hearts do mend, she taught me. Still, I couldn't tell her about Simone or my own wickedness, but I began to feel hopeful again. Perhaps there was such redemption in the world.
I would have married her anyway, my Marie. That she was Catholic and found herself pregnant with my child only gave us the excuse to do it sooner than later. May 14, 1943 was a happy day indeed. Her family wasn't quite as excited about the whole thing, especially that their daughter -- and their coming grandchild -- would soon be on a transport ship bound for the United States. But there was no way that my wife and child would remain in harm's way, not if I could help it.
Tomorrow would have been our fourth anniversary.
Of course, they never reached America. Their ship was targeted by a German U-boat. No survivors, I was told.
And then I was dead again. It's a wonder I survived the war. I deliberately threw myself into the line of fire, over and over again. I was determined to get myself killed, hopefully in some noble or heroic act, so that my precious Simone might someday look back on my memory and find it in her heart to forgive me. Yes, make me a martyr. Let my blood be spilt, as Henry's had.
But I survived, with a chest full of medals. To me, each and every one was a badge of shame. They were so heavy. I couldn't wait to take off that uniform, burn it, bury the medals. Just let the earth swallow me up somehow. I returned to my grandparents house. Grandfather had died while I was away, so it was just my grandmother and myself. She seemed to understand me without my having to explain myself, if I could have even found the words then.
Henry was dead. Marie and our child were dead. Simone hated me.
She hates me still. Only now she is trapped in a loveless marriage, My grandmother told me how Brad Carver wasted no time swooping in to claim her, once I was gone, and how Simone had been too heartsick to fend him off. She will have big houses and hearty children that go to the best schools. She will have every comfort, will want for nothing. But will she ever have love? Have I frozen her heart so completely?
I will cast no more spells. Even the good, constructive ones, my heart just isn't pure. I wouldn't want anyone to have to deal with the consequences of the darkness that has descended upon me. Grandmother keeps pressing her herbal cures on me, but I know they won't do any good. They call me "Tic," and I deserve that blood-sucking nickname. I will walk in this shadow the rest of my life.
* * * * *
Lily had listened in stunned silence as Susana read from Tic's journal, the very last entry in the book. Susana closed the volume carefully and looked up at Lily and Roy, not trying to hide the tears in her eyes.
"I never knew that Tic had been married." Lily blinked, trying to get her mind around what she had just heard. "I mean, all the time I've known him, he's been alone."
Susana nodded, looking down at the journal in her lap. "If he'd had any kin, I imagine he would have left his property to them. Instead of to us."
"So you think the honsha-whatever, the plant, that it came here because Tic called to it, something inside him?" Lily was looking to Roy for the answer.
"But there's more to it," Susana interrupted. "Something in this entry, Tic talked about Simone cursing him with her free will. I think he was more right than he could have known."
"What do you mean?" Lily reached for her glass of wine on the coffee table.
"It's something that Simone told me today, at the historical society. She didn't get into all this business." Susana tapped the cover of the journal. "But she did say that she and Tic had argued over something, and that in her heart, she had cursed him. That she had wished that he might spend his life alone."
"She wanted him to know what it felt like to have real love ripped away from him, as she had," Roy suggested. "And since Simone herself ended up in a marriage of convenience, from what it sounds like, Tic never got to love again either."
There was a commotion in the front hallways behind them. Baird was jumping about, barking happily. The three turned to see what the trouble was. Susana jumped out of her chair, and Lily's jaw dropped her her chest.
"Jesus!" exclaimed at the spectre looking in at them. From the photos she had seen, it was unmistakably Tic. Tic was standing in the hallway.
"Good Goddess!" Lily's eyes grew wide. Though she had initially expected to find Tic somewhere in the house, haunting the place, the weeks that had passed with no sign of him had left her believing he had in fact moved on.
Roy remained calmly in his seat, smiling. "I think we're onto something," he commented.
Lily grabbed one of the brown bottled from the coffee table and ran to the kitchen, slowing only as she passed Tic in the hallway. Running straight through her great-uncle's ghost was not something she wanted to experience right now. Tic's shadow appeared to glide down the hallway, following her.
Susana stepped out into the hallway, but wasn't about to get anywhere near the ghost. "What are you doing?" she called out to Lily.
"We're going to fix this." Lily was banging around in the kitchen, running water, and clinking bottles together. Finishing up, she side-stepped Tic's ghost in the doorway and strode back toward the living room, carrying a large bottle of brown liquid with her.
Susana pointed at the shadow at the end of the hall. "I don't know how you can just go waltzing around.... that."
Lily smiled at her cousin. She placed an arm around her and led her back into the living room. "Did you ever think that maybe he was asking for help?"
Susana went back to her seat, grateful that Tic -- or whatever it was -- hadn't followed. Lily proudly put the bottle down on the table.
"What is that?" Susana asked.
"Just some lemonade iced tea." Lily plopped back down onto the sofa. "It's for Simone. You'll take it to her first thing tomorrow morning, as a thank you for her help at the library today."
"Uh-huh," Susana responded suspiciously. "Why do I think that's not really iced tea."
"It is." Roy smiled at Lily. "Just with a little herbal tincture added." He winked at Lily.
Lily turned to Susana. "Don't you get it? It was a binding spell, the one that Tic cast. Those things always come back to bite you."
The shadow had reappeared in the doorway. Baird ran happy circles around and around the ghost of his master. Susana burst into tears.
"I just can't take this anymore," she cried, curling up into a ball in the chair.
Lily knelt down beside her. "Susana." She placed a comforting hand on her cousin's knee. "Susana, Tic bound himself when he placed his binding curse on Henry, and when he tried to bind Simone's heart to his own. He bound himself." Lily brushed the hairs away from Susana's face so she could see her eyes. "Magic can backfire like that all the time."
"What? So you think that giving this woman some kind of potion is then going to just make everything all better?" Susana sat up in the chair, looking to Roy for support.
"It's a different kind of magic," Lily explained. "We say a blessing over it, that it will only act toward the highest good, that old wounds may be healed, replaced instead by love and light."
"For the best outcome for all concerned," Roy added.
Susana held her hand over her lips, thinking. "Okay," she said finally. "You want to want to release people from what binds them?" Susana jumped up out of her chair and dashed toward the doorway, where she stopped short, facing Tic's shadow. She faltered, reaching for the wall to support her. With the flicker of a smile on his face, the ghost pulled back, allowing her a wide berth. Susana dashed around the corner and headed to the kitchen, where she grabbed one of the brown bottles from the breakfast table on her way out the backdoor.
It was twilight, the last remnants of the sunset having faded from the sky. Baird bounded out the door behind her and danced around her feet and Susana stood still for a moment, surveying the garden. She looked hard at the aegnus wort plant, which seemed to have doubled in size since she last saw it the day before. Shaking her head, she made a beeline for the greenhouse.
Roy and Lily stepped out onto the back porch. "Susana! What are you doing?" Lily called out to her. With a quick glance to Roy, Lily raced down the steps and followed her cousin across the grass.
Susana threw open the greenhouse door and flipped on the lights. She took a coupl